ROAD TO WORDS AND MOMENTS BY AMMARAH ARIF

Reluctantly, there was an obscure distance between us. 

I opened the door and entered a step in.

'MOMMY!' I feel that my tears have trapped my throat.

I further stepped towards her, and my lips muttered with my heart;

'MOMMY!' The candy-striper and my mother tracked my voice and saw me.

'You must have recognized your son.

Your HAZAN! Do you remember you even recognized my presence by my soul's fragrance?' I reached out to her without wasting a moment. I grabbed her hands tightly, and She was glancing at me with wide eyes.

'HAZAN! She barely opened her lips.

'Yes! It's me. You were calling me repeatedly in this awful pain, although my heart used to scream and say that I had to return to you.' I touched her eyes soothingly.

'Sir! Be careful, Don't talk about any hurtful matter that will strain her nerves!' She still hadn't forgotten to tease me, and then she left us alone in the room. 

'HAZAN!' I turned up to my mother.

'I am your sinner, my son. I do not hesitate to accept. It was my intensity and extremism, which made you cross the desert of so much misery.' Tears welled up in my eyes.

'Today, I also understand how heavy the breath and anguish are without the loved ones.' She was looking at me with wet eyes and a smirk because she, as my mother, never anticipated such words from me. 

'I will never let you live in that horrible house.' The flow of my thinking initiated here, and Finally, I confessed to her my perceptions.

'I can't go to that, 

'No, You have to come with me to your real castle. I have forgotten everything, and I take back my words.' I leaned on her forehead and kissed her.

'THOSE WORDS ARE NOT EMINENT FOR ME WHICH HAVE KEPT MY MOTHER SCATTERED!'

I leaned my forehead to her hands in my grip, and she closed her eyes leisurely. 

The psychologist was right;

The FACTUAL bliss of life is to return to the aperture of love.

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'I am your friend, your sympathetic partner. Come on, doll. Here come in my arms!' The man was slowly approaching the girl.

'NO! No Fri,,, No friend.' The girl clung to the wall.

'I will also give you this colorful band to wear.' He grabbed her delicate hand.

'I don't want this. Please leave my way!' The eleven year's old girl begged for her life.

The black body person started beating her. 

The person was shattered everywhere in her life badly. 

I was the girl; I lost the desire to live my life.

I couldn't raise my eyes in front of anyone, and I lost encouragement in my life. 

Every moment passing through the ups and downs is suffocating the breaths.

I am trying to change my life as much as I can; but that black body person and those nightmares do not leave me behind. I couldn't find a place to hide from these horrible nightmares. 

My whole being drenched in sweat again. My nose was bleeding, and I was feeling running giants around me.

'DURR-E-MIHARA!' Suddenly, someone tried to get me out of this environment. Someone tried to pull me.

'DURR-E-MIHARA!' I opened my eyes and saw that ZABBIE was sitting near me.

'He... He is carrying me. He is there,,, there.' I shouted and hid in ZABBIE'S chest. 

'Dear, Your nose is bleeding badly. Come on; you need the inhaler.' ZABBIE placed her hand on my head.

'No...Inhaler. No,,, We should leave,,, this place!' I stood up from my bed, but she thwarted my attempt.

'Believe me. I am with you. You need mental rest. No one will come here.' She hugged me firmly.

'He told me that he will take me with him, and the person will hit me just as he hit me before!' I was ready to cry again. There were shadows of fear on my face.

'I saw... BLOOD. I will not go!

BLOOD,,, I can't see!' I hide badly in ZABBIE'S body. 

She took me to bed like a child, and she sprayed an inhaler in my nose. I took a deep gust and lost consciousness.

These panic attacks were a part of my life. 

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The three were sitting in the ruler's office.

MEESHA had severely persuaded that innocent girl to co-operate with them in winning her case.

'LOOK!

He is a very tyrant guy. 

He will come down with more threats.' The girl hid her half-burned face with the cloth. 

But at that time, the ruler had entered.

'Earlier, we have only listened, but you have proved that

the ruler cherishes his honor and seat.' MEESHA shot her bloody arrow towards him.

'OH, GOD! Today, we have a wonderful gathering in our office. Lawyers have come to meet me with my beloved wife.' The ruler smiled. Something; When a human being never feels something inside himself, we can never persuade him.

Lawyers have come to meet me with my beloved wife.' The ruler smiled. 

There was a co-assistant along with him in the room. 

'Even though you are the monarch of this town, in the eyes of law and society, you are not so important.'

MEESHA answered him while throwing the doc.file on his face.

'I don't talk to girls!' He was stunned by the immediate onslaught, and the laughter of the two lawyers echoed in the room.

'He doesn't talk to girls, but he doesn't mind marrying girls.' HAZAN replied at the moment.

Don't even try to percept that; my presence here means that the girl sitting in front of you is startled by your threats or can't stand up for her liberties. (He had reached him and lifted the file from his footsteps)

This girl and the lawyer who is here with her is a testimony to that;

Girls are as strong as intelligence and actualization.

They move forward with stiffed eyes solely like a gemstone. 

My presence here means that no one can attack them from behind.' He said while fixing his collar with his hands.

MEESHA's face lit up with pride. 

And together, they had silenced him.

'Coming to the point, the purpose of my coming here!' MEESHA stood up from her chair, 'According to this doc, The land you are calling your own is his father's land!' Now she was standing right in front of him

'These documents can be wrong too! I can also hire a lawyer to prove my position.' He tried to make them scary. 

'I can also file a case against you!' She secretly opened the microphone stuck in a pen by clicking with her finger.

'DO YOU HAVE PROVE?' He gave her a wary glance.

'PROVE, she laughed, 'I keep numerous justifications; one of them will hit the prey right away.' She herself, too, was shocked at her present response.

'You lawyers, Your life settles on the lies.' The ruler also did not forget to attack.

'NO! NO! NO!'

You are not in the position to say anything, my dear! HAZAN made him sit again on his chair.

'You are only listening to this traitorous girl!' His tongue did not falter when he lied.

'You captured his father's land, (She used all her powers and broke the mirror glass of that ruler's room. She had blown her senses away downright),

 'You sent your co-assistant to attack her daughter, (Now the target of her power was the file kept there, the file sheets were weeping over their ripped condition),

'Showing your sympathy, you asked her to marry you!' She stepped forward and scratched his jaw with her hands.

'This is called the legal attack!' A girl had silenced him in a fairness manner.

'Now, whatever legal route you take, I will win this girl's case.' She picked up her file and went towards the door with them, but she stopped again.

'Carefully memorize your facial features and room climate. 

Next time any of your attacks will transform the shape of your healthy body.' He had sat scariness in his for this lawyer. 

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The ambiance at home felt like paradise.

His mother, the MOMMY, was with him.

She, too, felt a bit of difficulty while speaking. 

'THANK YOU!' He left her astonished step by step; no one cared so much about her after HER LOVE ZIL passed away.

He was having breakfast with her and talking to her.

There were sounds of children playing outside.

'After breakfast, we must walk to the garden to see the children!' She was shocked too; he was even irritated by the children's playful sound, then how?

'ZIL always adores the children's voice.' They both smiled together.

'I am your ZIL'S son! We both will forget all the memories, and I will move forward with you in my successful life.' He sat at her feet and began to put on her shoes.

'I wish you had a sister.' She caresses his cheeks.

'SISTER,,, What if I had no sister? But you can have a daughter in this world.' He kissed her feet.

'Then, when are you bringing back my daughter here?' She stopped his working hands and made him sit closer to her mother on the couch.

'I wanna become a lawyer!' She knew he wanted to fulfill his father's wishes.

'A gentleman must obey a woman.' She spoke, stroking his hair.

'WOMAN,,, No my lady, I can't obey you because I need to sort out some clashes.' He stood her up and spoke and took her towards the corridor.

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It was complex for me to come out from the reflection of those treacherous voices till morning.

'Will you be my friend?' 

It was as if that black body person standing behind me was blowing the scariness of his voice in my ears.

'The flaw cannot stop spring from coming to life!' A voice I heard, and that voice could change a lot in my life. I turned back to follow that voice.

'Why haven't you gone to university yet?' It was RUBAINA'S voice who was ZABBIE's nephew.

'He is coming back. He will take me with him. He will hit me again.' I shared the hysteria of my heart with her.

'You haven't recovered from this trauma since the accident. I have already told you before to come with me to the hospital.' She opened the door of the balcony and opened the cage of JACKY.

'AINA! Close this door. This glare is killing me.' I covered my eyes with my hair.

'MINI,,, MINI,,, Jacky flew and tried to hide inside my hair.

'MIHARA! Listen, you have to stand. 

Your senses will accept psychological counseling to take an encouraging step in your life. Come with me to the hospital.' She was a well-known psychologist in today's world.

I kept my head on the bed and cried.

Today I was remembering all the accidents that happened to ME.

Today I was repenting from my life.

The repentance that man makes after repeated sins_ But I was executing this repentance to save my life.

'You call me mad. But no one can understand that all this is happening to me.' I shouted, rubbing my cheeks.

'You have to share it with me. We will find a solution, and you get easy!' My heart was pounding when I heard her words; (An unable person to comprehend me)

'Come on, get up!' You have to go to university.' She picked up JACKY in her hands.

'No,,, I am not,,, I am not mad. Everybody looks at me there!' I scratched my cheeks, and they started bleeding.

'By doing, this you are proving yourself mentally ill. 

Nothing has happened to you,,,

You are perfect like ordinary people,,,

JACKY flew to my shoulder and mopped my cheeks with its colorful wings.

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'Do you also think that I am suffering from a disorder like double personality?' RUBAINA was driving the car, saw me with a fishy look, and stopped to the fore of the university entrance. 

'Take a deep breath, DURR-E-MIHARA,,, 

And entering here, you will only focus on your analyses.' She closed the cuffs of my sleeves.

I picked my steps facilely and went to my analysis room. 

In between, my steps must have slipped, and my footsteps stopped by the trance of a voice.

It was the voice that enchanted me to forget everything.

"The eye is for seeing the power of GOD and shedding tears,,,

The heart is to be for melancholy and to feel,,,

Language is for expression,,,

REMEMBER always_ With the tongue; we will only have to what our Lord is pleased with." OF COURSE, the class was ongoing, and there was an obsession with his rhythm today.

'STAY AWAY FROM ME, OR YOU WILL DIE AT MY HAND!' The echo of his trembling voice once shook my soul.

'NO,,,  NO,,,!' I better felt to go to my analysis class.

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'Yes, sir. My services are always present!' An agent entered his room and tributed him.

'Have a seat, DURAN!' MEESHA stared at both of them with doubt.

'I am countering a case opposed to the ruler of this area;  he continued while showing him the report,

'He might hire an advocate for his defense, so I need exclusive and official data regarding his every move.' Now he handed him a booster amount statement which left MEESHA surprised.

DURAN smiled and answered him;

'Sir, God has sent us to save our daughters and sisters here. And for that, he sends us the statement personally!' He gave him back the check proudly. 

'DO remember, All this should not imperil someone's life.' He leaned back on his rocking chair.

'Our services are always loyal. We will not let anyone know about the moment.' DURAN proudly wore his cap.

'Whatever you do! 

Whichever path you take, even if it is wrong, His tone left MEESHA's eyes wide.

 "Convey me such news which can help me move forward." DURAN carried the file with passing a great tribute to him and left his room.

'You would hand that money to me too.

I am ready to work for you!' She really felt bad for he hadn't told her about anything.

He smiled and drove towards the couch where she was sitting.

'Do you need my permission to work with me? He put his hand on her shoulder and took her into his siege.

'But you should have informed me that you are involving an officer in this case.' She looked down and spoke.

'Forget all those black memories; He leaned his forehead to hers and closed his eyes,

'I am standing along with you.' Hearing his voice, she calmed down and closed her eyes too.

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My analyses passed the completion state; I went towards the swimming pool and sat there.

'REALLY,,, I AM LIVING IN THE STATE OF DOUBLE PERSONALITY?' I questioned myself.

I knew it was self-perception.

The continuity of my thoughts broke when I heard the sound of someone breathing behind me.

I wanted to take a step back from scariness, and I tried to slip back.' Then suddenly, he tightly gripped my hands as in previous moments.

'Be careful! DEAR!' He carefully let me stand up.

'I,,, No,,, I didn't come in your,,, My hands were shaking in his grip.

'STAY AWAY FROM ME.' His earlier scathing words made me more afraid. 

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